fdgjkhfdkghkfgh I have so much left that I still have to pack D:
I got sick so my last day off was spent trying to get rid of a fever, bleh.
Going to break down the computer after work today, gotta pack half the crap laying around the mess in this room, do the rest of the laundry too. Hopefully tomorrow it's not raining all day.
Got to drive in some lovely pebble-sized hail yesterday while running errands. Oh, so much FUN. At least I beat it home from work and didn't get stuck on 24 in that mess, ugh. I had enough of stupid Tennessee drivers lol.
About to start to save to move out, our friend won't have anyone to help them with rent/bills in about three to four months. We're going to look for an apartment complex around Antioch or at least close to Franklin. Wish me luck, going to save all extra money that I can around my bills. Going to suck seeing as how i'm still making payments on the saturn, but it's my credit score that's going to get us in.
Stolen from Debbeh..
1. Make a list of 5 things you can see without getting up:
Wacom, Cam Angle Sensor (Car Part), my Wallet, Shot glass from Ireland, cat.
2. How do you style your hair?
Pulled back right now, too long.
3. What are you wearing now?
Pj's and a cat.
4. What's your occupation?
5. What do you hear right now?
Led Zepplin - The Ocean
6. Who was the last person you hugged?
7. What was/is for dinner?
Idk, whatever I can get a hold of.
8. What did you do today?
Woke up and got on the computer.
9. What was the last text message you received?
idk, phone too far away. Possibly the conversation with my sister pertaining to leasing and bs.
10. What websites do you always visit when you go online?
Deviantart, Facebook, Craigslist, Weather.com
11. What was the last thing you bought?
Taco Bell ;d
12. If you could afford to go anywhere in the world, where would you go?
Scandinavia, see ancestral stuff...
13. Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
Still working my ass off, but my pos saturn will be paid off!
14. Where's your birthmark?
Left knee, one small one on both sides of abdomen.
15. What are you doing this weekend?
Laundry, selling ben's car that he's getting rid of, maybe painting something idk.
16. If you could play any musical instrument, which one would you play?
I can and do play Bass.
17. How are you?
Have a cramp from eating too much last night and the cat is starting to aggravate me..
18. How much do you get paid?
Not very much, seems enough to just pay my bills and gas for the week.
19. What's the last thing you have regretted?
Not too sure..
20. What's the last good movie you saw?
Vampires Suck, Super Mario Brothers Movie.. *shrug*
That's my left eye, now, to point out something aside from that.
On my mom's side there is a person named Sigurd Snake In The Eye, he's My 34th great grandfather, I'M directly related to him on one branch, on another to his brother, Bjorn Ironside.
Anywho, I will copy down something from wikipedia for you:
"Sigurd Snake-in-the-eye (Old Norse: Sigurðr ormr í auga) was one of the sons of Ragnar Lodbrok and Kraka, but what set him apart from the others was that he was born with the image of the ouroboros, a snake or dragon biting its own tail, encircling the pupil of his left eye."
"Once Ragnar visited viceroy Östen Beli of Sweden and Östen convinced Ragnar of marrying the Swedish princess Ingeborg and of rejecting Kraka. At his return home, three birds had already informed Kraka of Ragnar's plans, and so she reproached him and told him of her true noble origins. In order to prove that she was the daughter of Sigurd who had slain Fafnir, she said that she would bear a child whose eye would bear the image of a serpent. This happened and she bore the son Sigurd Snake-in-the-Eye. When Östen learnt of Ragnar's change of mind, he rebelled against Ragnar, but was slain by Ragnar's sons at Kraka's behest."
Although it's not encircling the pupil (more like the iris), i'm thinking about the possibility that you can be reincarnated from an ancestor (if that's possible) or if I just carried down some odd ball chunk of DNA code that allowed it, though there'd be more instances and I don't recall Mom having it.
After reading the information on this link I got goosebumps and get them every time I read it. Weird.
Another site said it probably occured from a mutation that allows someone to not have a pupil, but that usually ends up in said person being mentally retarded. As far as i know those people are in no match to fight anything and it also effects BOTH eyes. Soooo, i'm thinking it's around the iris and the information must have gotten misconstrued throught the years.
Meditation from this morning:
Woke up early this morning and did a self- pathworking. A big burly man told me to walk down this long winding path to a round area of grass at the top. When I arrived at the top there was a big BIG floating bubble. I asked if i could see the akashic records of my past lives, I was shown three.
The first one I opened my eyes to see rolling hills, blue sky, bright sun, and a lake. I walked over to the lake and looked at myself. I looked 12 or so, eyes were brownish?, Looked down at my clothes, they were made of animal skin and fur, had arm guards as well. Another boy got my attention so I walked with him, on our way two little blonde-headed girls came up with a flag that had a raven on it, giggled and handed it to me. Those two little girls were Sigurd's siblings and i was him.
The scene changed, I was a man standing against a truck at the end of an alleyway watching the effle tower being put up. I picked up a newspaper, saw it was all in french and before i could put it down someone came up behind me with an axe and cut my head off.
Immediately after I was in a dark room looking down at a big man (not fat, just broad shoulders, big face), his face was covered in gauze and he had stitches on his chest, had a blanket on his lower torso, eyes were closed. I wondered what happened to him and it flashed to (what would've been) a nice orange muscle car that had been crashed into a wall or guardrail, Noticed it was raining and felt bad/depressed about the car... then I went back to this time.
...I should meditate more. Thankful for the knowledge passed down to me, thankful for such a family (I am related to Sigurd, idk about the other two men).
After playing on ancesty.com for a while I stumbled upon...
My character I use to act out frustrations, doodle scenes in life, hangs out with Tomo *shifty eyes*.
He's an epic little cranky thing :3
Made an RP aim screen name - TomodachiGarin
GO FIND IT.
Quick reference doodle for the basics on Tomo. Just bored and I can't seem to draw decently this week, oh well. Ideas for improvement of not being able to draw this week? gah D:
On another note, I painted on an actual canvas! I am pleased with the result seeing as how I can't draw birdies to save my life!
It's little Peepers! I miss him so much, but this came to mind, I used an old picture as a reference.
A friend got me wanting to paint a wolf, but i'm scared i'd fuck it up D:
I've been painting
Watched the Raising Hope Halloween episode, it was great!
"The bitch who lives here wouldn't give her any candy" lmao.
If you could change one thing about your past without it changing every other aspect of your life, what would it be?
-Be a little smarter with people in the past.
Are you happy with where you are in life at this time?
-Not really, I want to pay my car off and I want to buy the house down the street ugh.
If you could travel anywhere in the world without cost being a deciding factor, where would you go?
-Japan and scotland.
Do you get along better with the same sex or the opposite sex?
-It depends, it's really hard lol.
Are you the type of person who prefers one or two close friends or lots of acquaintances?
-One or two close friends.
Are you still friends with anyone you went to school with?
-Lauren, Jen, Debbie, Meghan, Jordan and I guess Gabe
Are you a homebody or a social butterfly?
What do you enjoy doing on the weekends?
-I am normally working on the weekends :P
If you and one friend were asked to be on a reality TV show, who would you take with you?
-It might be fun.
Beer, wine, or liquor?
-BEER, I can't stand wine and my liquor days are well over.
What is your relationship status?
-Taken. We have a cat child, you know?
Are you happy with your current relationship (or lack thereof)?
-Mixed emotions, but I love him.
What is your idea of a perfect date?
-I never usually have the money for a "perfect date". Though it would be dinner, walk in the park or on the beach, Museum or art show, movie afterwards for cuddle-purposes, and end the day asleep under a pile of blankets.
What's your idea of the perfect romantic getaway?
-Somewhere in the mountains here.
If you could have a date with any celebrity, who would it be and what would you do?
-Eh, i'm really not sure.
Do you think you can love someone, without trusting them?
-Working on that one right now. Trying to find a way round the negativity.
Do you believe it is possible to be in love with someone you've never actually spent time with?
Do you believe in soul mates?
-If there is one, i've not found them yet.
If you do believe in soul mates, have you found yours?
Which is more intimate in your opinion: Cuddling or intercourse?
-They're both just as intimate as the other.
If your partner was unable to have sex due to illness or injury, would you stay with them?
-Of course, i'm not in a relationship with someone for the sex.
Are you happy with your current career/job?
-I get to do something I like now, just i'd rather my training be done sometime SOON.
If not, what would you rather be doing?
Which is more important, your career or your family (assuming you are married with children)?
-Career, without it there would be no food/family.
If you answered family to the above question, would your family agree that they are most important?
How many hours a week do you work, on average?
Did you choose your current career path for money or enjoyment?
-Money, but I enjoy the bread making
If you could have any job, what would your top three career choices be?
-Information Technology (I want to get my bachelors in it at Kaplan), Graphic Designer, or maybe traveling the world for some reason that's job-ish.
What's your biggest strength when it comes to your job?
Adversely, what's your biggest weakness or flaw?
-There are so many.
Do you take pride in your work, or just hurry through it as quickly as you can?
-My bread turns out looking like bread, does it not?
I am definately going to bust my ass in getting the saturn fixed and in getting the fuck out of this house.
I spend the last of my money on something to eat and because I don't share it with ben's mom she goes and starts a fight with the whole house days later. Seriously, I can't handle 40-year-olds acting like three year olds, I can't stand three year olds acting like three year olds bah. I'm tired of it, she wants the house to revolve around her yet have a "family unit". Sorry, can't be the center of the universe and get the family to live in perfect harmony.
I don't care wtf I do, I am starving about 65% of the time, I have a thyroid problem which made my metabolism crazy fast, i can loose two pounds in a day by doing nothing. I don't like to feel like i'm wasting away. Now, i'll just buy food that doesn't have to be prepaired. I will just buy snacks and keep them down in the basement. I tried to tolerate her after i lost respect for her, now I can't even do that.
So after much tinkering with the computer I found out that my powersupply is still good. I think in the future i'm going to stick with BFG tech! It lived through our old house that we rented having massive power continuity problems in our bedroom. I can't say much for the motherboard that was on the computer at the time, that's what actually went bad.
It's either the wobbly/loose sata port that shorted the board out or it's the 24pin connector where the powersupply connects to that burnt out. I know computers won't start if that's melted in some point or burnt up. I haven't taken the board off of the motherboard plate so I don't know as of yet. I'm waiting for Newegg to auto-notify me of an ASUS board when they get it back in stock. Apparently every company I shop with is out, what a bummer, eh? It's even worse that everyone is ditching the ddr2 pc800 ram and the am2/am2+ processor socket, I really don't have that kind of money to upgrade everything.
I have a saturn that has a transmission that won't work anymore, we're going to throw a five speed transmission in there and hope for the best. The tags for the car are due in October and it's not going to happen because I won't have the check engine light out for the car to be able to pass emissions ugh.
So I'm thinking in the mean time to get the bills paid like normal, get my motherboard shipped over (when I can get it), buy little parts here and there, and then in February when I get my tax return dropping a grand into the car to either get the transmission done (if it's not already) and then get the car a good amount of money put down on it again. When I can get all of this done I want to upgrade my phone from a samsung messenger to a blackberry, get WoW back on the computer (until then I have Diablo), and put the rest towards the bills for the month. I can't wait to get things back in order lol.
After all of that is said and done with I am going to work on getting a couple things replaced on my GSX, but those I can (hopefully) take my time with hah. Especially if I can drive my saturn to and from work!
I just want to have my own computer back bah.
Ah, horrid scribble of actual good feelings.
I don't care about thumbnails.
I have reconnected with quite the few close friends, some I haven't talked to in a while *waves at Debbie*. I am quite content with hearing all of you, I miss you all!
I'm getting clingier the more i'm away from a certain few, dammit. I called Meghan the other day, she was GREAT to talk to, just hearing her voice was comforting, I love it. I should call more people hah. Stop being busy people!
I put Black Market Music in my cd player, it hasn't left for a couple days. Placebo is so relaxing to listen to, puts me in a calm. I'm amazed, all of these songs have such poignant reminders of how I felt a few years ago, I still feel those ways, just differently.
One should listen to Placebo - Passive Aggressive.
I have played about 26 hours into Dragon Age: Origins. GOD, I just can't stop. I tried to do some fanart, but failed, but the tablet down, and went back to playing the game. It's too distracting right now I believe, which is why I'm screwing the art up. I care and then I don't. I just want to keep playing and drooling, of course, over Morrigan.
God, She's hot. It's horrible.
I heard the game has about 100 hours of play, side quests and all. Once I get this current set of quests done for Orzammar I'll be able to just go to the landsmeet and beat the game, if I wanted to, but I want to milk every little bit out of this game. So I will take care of other quests before starting that whole mess. At a confusing boss right now, I got my ass kicked. We'll see if I can figure something out tomorrow. I apparently have to close and can't play when I get home because Ben will be sleeping for work gah.
"What was that, Alistar? We weren't listening."
I only have one wisdom tooth, it's on my top right and it's backwards XD. They don't want to remove it. They can't find out why my jaw is aching, but they're going to deep clean my mouth and give me a couple fillings next appointment. Then I get to talk to the orthodontist and ask him for an appointment to yank a crowding tooth out.
There goes christmas XD
ºDentist on the third, I can't wait! Hopefully my wisdom teeth are hurting so godawfully bad because they are impacting. If they are impacting, he'll take them all out for me and it'd be like a bad dream! :)
ºAlmost broke two fingers yesterday, they're both swollen and hard to type with lol. Yay for hyperextending them! AND I am cooking tomorrow hah.
*Working over 45 hours this week, I can't say how excited I am! I closed last night and am going to be working at 6am this morning, so i'm running on three and a half hours of sleep.
*Driving mommy in laws car to work while they're in florida, driving automatics freaks me out so badly! I'm trying to get used to antilock brakes/abs too, my saturn and eagle don't have either. I think the cars in drivers ed had them and my sisters newer saturn...hmmm. Something is seriously wrong with the talon, we think injectors or iasc, and the saturn's registration is out because it failed emissions twice and I couldn't fix it in time.
*When I get out of work today I will most likely take a nap, then I will get up and continue cleaning the house up.
*4 loaves of rosemary bread (making myself)
*Sister Shuberts rolls (on sale at publix)
*Rib eye steaks (the little morsels were on sale at publix)
*london broil, because ben thought the ribeyes wouldn't be enough.
*2 gallons of green tea (on sale at publix)
*maybe a Guinness
*Salad (on sale at publix)
*salsalito turkey and jalapeno havarti cheese (paninis for the win, i am NOT slaving over a turkey!)
I think that's about it... I got stuff for stew later in the week :). Too earlllly.
I beat katamari forever in a matter of three days.
My talon isn't circulating coolant.
The saturn is still out for the count, has the failed emissions slip in the dash.
I can't wait for the cars to be finished so I can actually save some money and start paying things off.
I'm a wee bit tired of being either at work, asleep, or working on the cars all the time.
Yaaay it's getting cold here!
And the water got shut off.. wooo!
I need to get better!
I guess i'll start posting random doodles to this journal when I don't have something constructive to say, nor when my art is shitty enough not for me to want to put it on DA. Random stuff that I don't really have as characters or anything. Who knows.
I don't think i've gotten any better at it haha.
It died on a hill in the middle of traffic and people STILL sat behind us like we were going to go somewhere while we had the flashers on. TN gets an A for intelligence. Had to put it in neutral, back it into a church parking lot, then had to wait for traffic to clear to push it across the road into a grocery store parking lot because it wouldn't go back into the parking lot for the church, kept trying to roll out into traffic.
I wish I had the freaking title, i'd throw that thing in the junkyard SO fast.
Hopefully we can fix it before the end of October, have to take it to get its emissions test. With it stalling five times in a row on the same part of a hill for no reason it's going to fail. Can't get new stickers for my plate if car fails. Grrrr.